how did I do?....how did I feel?

9 weeks into 2015...wow!  My #9 52 challenge question is "How did you do and feel?"  That is a wide open question, so, I'm opening up wide for the answer (because it's one I'd rather not talk about or dwell on, mostly because it's boring and pointless)....

So...had a CT scan yesterday.  Obviously, they scanned my head and neck to see if my existing ganglioma tumors have grown and if the others were growing back.  My last 2 CT scans, showed no growth in the existing tumors or new growth where the others had been removed.  So, I wasn't nervous about this one.

Each time I get a scan, they shoot that "dye" through me.  It's a funny sensation...you feel like you're peeing your pants!  Last time I got kind of sick and dizzy for a bit, while the dye did it's job, but not this time...i felt great and was pretty comfortable with it all.  The room was even warm :]

After the scan, I met with Dr. Sharma.  Well....the existing tumors have grown.  I guess there's nothing growing on the right side (where the other tumors used to live), because he didn't say a word about that?  I'm not going to lie...I was a little shocked.  I'm not a 'freaker-outer' though, so I did ok with the news.   But, sure...I'm a bit pissed off that the left side tumors have grown.  Prognosis = I will eventually have to get both of them removed.  Shit.  For the last year and a half, scans have shown NO growth and there were NO surgeries on the horizon.  I'm not nervous though...I truly feel like everything is ok.  And, like I always preach, IT IS WHAT IT IS.

I think I'm doing a great job with all my ganlioma issues!  I'm positive, have a great support team and the whole experience is a blessing.  I am a whole different person than I was 3 years ago:  I'm stronger;  I'm grateful;  my life is a gift;  my husband is a saint;  my girls are angels;  death isn't my biggest fear;  my voice is softer (in more ways than the volume); I know exactly what means the most to me.  How do I feel....FANTASTIC!!!!!  I've beat the worst of this before...I'll just kick it in the ass again!

My most adorable Caitlyn posted this quote onto my Facebook page.
She's a tender one...and I love her.

My tumors don't define me.  There's more to life than sitting around worrying about a couple tumors, that are growing a little.  So what.  It's all about the sunshine baby!  That's all I seek - light, warmth and a little bit sparkle.  Oh, happy day!

Keep your sunny side up!
Lisa Lucille