study, journal, create, repeat...

One year ago I started a scripture study.  The study was to run for 7 days and guide me through the last week of Christ's life.  There was so much sincerity and spirit in that study I decided to find another scripture study challenge.  When that challenge had ended I found another challenge...and so on and so forth.  I studied various scripture themes for the next 12 months.  It has made a significant difference in my life.

Also, one year ago, I embarked onto many personal journal challenges.  These are not as consistent as my scripture journaling, but definitely as enjoyable.  I'm not a writer and no more am I a scrapbooker, however my desire to keep on documenting is alive.  I love the idea of pictures that illustrate my words and so I will always strive to involve photo's...because they are fun!  It's been proven that journaling is therapeutical.  I guess I'm a sucker for personal theory?  I don't know?  At any rate, I will continue.

What I'm taking from this past 'year of journal study adventure' is that journaling must be "my thing".  I'm constantly challenging myself to read, journal and create.  I don't feel right if I'm not involved in it in some way.  It's like being lost.  I don't want to be lost.  I don't want my memories and knowledge to be lost.

Life is a process that's never ending.  I can't really wrap my head around that?  I'd like to see a finality to it, where I am the all knowledgable and complete human being...nope, not in the cards.  I will always be my quiet, chaotic self, loaded with anxiety, panic disorders, addictions and insecurity.  It's gotta be ok, because when I document it all it seems silly, fun, crazy and worth my days spent on this earth.  Again, it all seems fun and normal when I journal.  My spirit finds peace when I'm nose deep in scripture study.  My memory stays semi acute when I'm documenting.  No one will ever take interest in my ordinary life, nor will it prove any historical findings.  I don't care.  I've just gotta do it.

So...HERE'S TO SCRIPTURE STUDY, JOURNALING AND LEARNING!!  May the force be with you!

Keep your sunny side up,
Lisa Lucille :]

attitude of gratitude?...

Sometimes it's hard to remember that there is so much to be grateful for.  Life takes over, the adversary pokes at your heart, chaos ensues or one wrong word punches you in the gut.  This life action is all to familiar for everyone...yes, everyone.  So, "whatever is there to be grateful for?!!?" Oh, so very much!

I'm having a rough go at life, not gonna lie.  But, I'm sick and tired of complaining and sulking.  In the spirit of Christmas I've decided to pump up my feel goods, be grateful and smile.  My life is a blessed one.  It's full of family, love, laughter and goodness.  I have a testimony that my Father in Heaven loves me...should that not be enough?  Sadly, sometimes I forget that it IS enough.

President Thomas Monson once gave a talk called "Attitude of Gratitude" and, as usual, it was phenomenal.  So, I'm taking his quote 'have an attitude of gratitude' and applying to my christams week.  I am grateful for small moments of creativity and wonder.  For example: finding out that 2 shots of peppermint syrup are so delightful in a regular hot chocolate; my husband stomping out, in the fresh fallen snow, a message "I love LP"; gathering and delivering small and silly gifts for my neighbor family; substituting the Sunbeam class.  I will be searching for more small moments of wonder during the week.  I know I will find many.

He loves me.
He must...it was 11 degrees outside when he did this!

I am grateful.  I will strive to be grateful.  I can't miss out on the blessings.

Keep your sunny side up!
Lisa Lucille

year in a nut shell....

Equation....LAST YEAR = CHAOS!

In a nutshell.....Ava baby, 25th wedding anniversary celebration, start home remodel, Sadie wins place in Miss Bluffdale Pageant, purchased St. George house, still remodeling during the 106 degree summer,  lots of parades attended, moving into St. G house, took a girls (my girls) trip to Jackson Hole, gradually completing home remodel, Sadie moves up to Logan to start college at Utah State, girls trip (Kay) to Arizona, moving mom-in-law into new home, mom-in-law fights depression and we jump in to help her through it, CJ gone ALL of September...he's in Canada and Kansas, Lisa fights depression, CJ is an ironman once again in Panama City Florida, small thanksgiving in St. G, Lisa still tired and crawling through depression, still in the final stretch of house remodel, then christmas.

The last 3 years have not been easy ones.  What I have learned is that life is just life, and that it's like playing a very competitive game of dodgeball.  Sometimes we dodge one, sometimes we win with a quick catch and other times we get smacked in the face or gut and have to sit out for a bit.  It's all ok if we just take it for what it is...life.  I breathe A LOT and count to 10 OFTEN, then I have the ability to decide whether I accept or reject, and it has worked.

In battle we learn strategy.  I'm grateful for the opportunities I've been blessed with to learn and grow...create my strategy!  I can assuredly say there is opposition in ALL things.  We make decisions everyday, good and bad, positive and negative, kind and mean.  I've gained a passion for good, positivity and kindness, and I intend to share it!  I'm still battling my demon within, but someday he will lose my game of dodgeball...I will strongly and gladly smack him so hard, he will have to sit out for a very long time.

"..when the first rubber ball smacked her in the head and made her brains rattle in her skull, she knew that something about this dodgeball game was different"

...quote by Michael Buckley

keep your sunny side up!

lisa lucille :]

5 things....

52 gratitude challenge #10....

5 things I like about MYSELF

#1.  I love my testimony of God the Father and His Son.  

#2.  I love that I have a desire to study, learn and create.

#3.  I love my other half...WE make a whole.

#4.  I love my boobs...not God given, but they are fabulous!

#5.  I love my hair.  It's soft and shiny and it's purple.

I like me.  There's way more than 5 things I like about me.  It makes me smile that I can even say that.  Took a long time though, wow...age, wisdom and a few battles do wonders for the soul!  GO ME!

ALWAYS exist in the sunlight...it's really warm there!

Lisa Lucille  

how did I do?....how did I feel?

9 weeks into 2015...wow!  My #9 52 challenge question is "How did you do and feel?"  That is a wide open question, so, I'm opening up wide for the answer (because it's one I'd rather not talk about or dwell on, mostly because it's boring and pointless)....

So...had a CT scan yesterday.  Obviously, they scanned my head and neck to see if my existing ganglioma tumors have grown and if the others were growing back.  My last 2 CT scans, showed no growth in the existing tumors or new growth where the others had been removed.  So, I wasn't nervous about this one.

Each time I get a scan, they shoot that "dye" through me.  It's a funny sensation...you feel like you're peeing your pants!  Last time I got kind of sick and dizzy for a bit, while the dye did it's job, but not this time...i felt great and was pretty comfortable with it all.  The room was even warm :]

After the scan, I met with Dr. Sharma.  Well....the existing tumors have grown.  I guess there's nothing growing on the right side (where the other tumors used to live), because he didn't say a word about that?  I'm not going to lie...I was a little shocked.  I'm not a 'freaker-outer' though, so I did ok with the news.   But, sure...I'm a bit pissed off that the left side tumors have grown.  Prognosis = I will eventually have to get both of them removed.  Shit.  For the last year and a half, scans have shown NO growth and there were NO surgeries on the horizon.  I'm not nervous though...I truly feel like everything is ok.  And, like I always preach, IT IS WHAT IT IS.

I think I'm doing a great job with all my ganlioma issues!  I'm positive, have a great support team and the whole experience is a blessing.  I am a whole different person than I was 3 years ago:  I'm stronger;  I'm grateful;  my life is a gift;  my husband is a saint;  my girls are angels;  death isn't my biggest fear;  my voice is softer (in more ways than the volume); I know exactly what means the most to me.  How do I feel....FANTASTIC!!!!!  I've beat the worst of this before...I'll just kick it in the ass again!

My most adorable Caitlyn posted this quote onto my Facebook page.
She's a tender one...and I love her.

My tumors don't define me.  There's more to life than sitting around worrying about a couple tumors, that are growing a little.  So what.  It's all about the sunshine baby!  That's all I seek - light, warmth and a little bit sparkle.  Oh, happy day!

Keep your sunny side up!
Lisa Lucille

try a Little Harder to be a Little Better

Well, HELLO 2015!  It's good to see you, It's good to be alive and It's good to celebrate you!  I'm not a resolution kind of girl though, so, I am just going to...

...how does that sound?  Great!  Then let's do this thing!

My journal/planner is ready!

My calendar is flipped to January!

The events of "trying a little harder to be a little better" will include:
ONE!  Obtain and install knowledge of the Doctrine and Covenants and Church History.
TWO!  Be 'consciously' kind!  (give away lots of sunshine & RAK)
THREE!  Become more 'elysian'

FOUR!  Hike & Explore

FIVE!  (last, but not least...) BE A FREAKING GRAM GRAM!!!!!

I am excited for this year to unfold.  I changed my blog name (because I think of myself as "lucky lucille"), I am going to be a grandma, I am going to run some 5k's, I am going to take mountain adventures and I am going to be a kinder, nicer and sunny-er person! That's just the way it's gotta be!

Keep your sunny side up!

Lisa Lucille 

weak moments happen...it's ok...move on

As far as what my Heavenly Father wants me to be doing today...it's a fail.  I failed.  I woke up entirely too late to be at church on time, but I did get ready.  When I realized I was going to be too late to take the sacrament, and CJ wasn't going to be home from his run any time soon, I bailed on church all together.  No fire in my soul today, no motivation.  I shed my dress and went for some comfortable leggings and a cardigan.

Today, I definitely woke up on the wrong side of the bed.  Probably because I slept so late.  So, naturally, everything is getting on my nerves.  CJ and Sadie are being cautiously kind to me (they know what it's like when my mood is gray), and I'm grateful they are.  The sun is shining, as if to say "Lisa, it really is going to be a beautiful day!"  Thank you sun, you always have my back.   My testimony is strong...so I don't feel like a slacker there.  Heavenly Father loves me, and although he may be disappointed in my decisions today, he has his arms around me...as usual.  Always grateful for that...ALWAYS.  So, my plan...#1 - take in the sunshine, #2 - remember my Father in Heaven loves me, #3 - go for a drive, with CJ, and gaze into the big blue sky.

As the Prophet said....

I adore President Hinckley

So...I will carry on today.  I will smile and breathe.  I will see the beauty.  I will eat a delicious roast.  When I go to bed tonight I will say "It really was a beautiful day...thanks sun!  Thanks Heavenly Father for holding me tight!  CJ, you are the man...thanks sexy face!"  Yep, that IS the plan!

Mathew 26:41 "Watch and pray, that ye enter not into temptation: the spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak."  I'm writing this down and taping it to my mirror...I will read it everyday this week!!

Peace
Lisa Lucille

my cardinal rules are...and i just broke one!

I think everyone has their own set of "rules" they will NOT EVER brake.   I have mine.  I broke one of them today.  I paired blue with black, in my outfit.  OH, HEAVEN FORBID!!!!  Yep, that's about as serious as it gets.  

black cardigan with blue tie die leggings...the horror.

Human beings are such funny creatures.  We're all walking around on this earth, with our own agenda...our own set of rules.  We should all understand this and respect each other a little more.  Example:   My CJ has a rule...DON'T say "Sorry!" without action.  If you apologize, then ya better fix it.  To CJ "sorry" is not an excuse, and he's right!  We all apologize to each other with a 'sorry' then walk away.  However, if we are truly sorry we should change our actions and not do it again.  That's a good rule.  It took me a long time to sincerely appreciate his "sorry" rule and begin to respect it and understand it.  I now only say "I'm sorry" when I honestly mean it and intend to change my actions.  I wish everyone had the decency to respect others 'rules'.  NOT agree, necessarily, just respect.  There is a huge difference between the two.

That being said...my rules are these - drum roll....
#1. DON'T take the Lords name in vain!
#2. Whispering in front of others is just lame, never do that!
#3. Never pretend to be someone your not! (it's uncomfortable and doesn't suit you...Miley should have learned that from Brittney - just sayin')
#4. If you don't have anything to say...then PLEASE don't say anything at all *silence is an art*
#5. If you have to live through it then ya damn sure better learn from it!
#6. Don't ask for someone's opinion if you don't really want it.
#7. Blue and pink eye shadow is out of style and will never be back "in" like it was in the 80's...don't.
#8. Fashion is overrated.
#9. Choose kindness...you can't go wrong.
#10. Never, absolutely ever, wear black with blue!  (that applies to black with brown as well...it's a jr. high thing - I never got over it!)

I've sinned and broke my own rules, occasionally.  We all do, that's why we came up with the word forgive...we can forgive ourselves (it's just really hard...especially for stubborn people...i'd know!).  However, the older I get the easier it is and I respect others "rules" as well, even if I think they are INSANE!  I just don't tell them I think they are insane, because that's mean, and I have my own rule about that...#9.

"MY LIFE...MY RULES."  -zaxoulis

Peace out peeps!
Lisa Lucille

Thankful!!!!!!

I don't care if I'm having my worst day EVER...I can still find something to be grateful for!  I openly admit that on my "bad" days, I just want to whine and have everyone bring me a 32 oz. diet coke (with pebble ice & in a paper or styrofoam cup).  BUT, then I look at my husband, one of Sadie's paintings or Caitlyn's little notes and remember that, no matter what, there are beautiful things in my life that I am indeed grateful for.  They trump ALL the bad.

Thanksgiving is tomorrow.  I'm cooking for my little family.  I can't wait!!!!  We are together A LOT, but thanksgiving just seems to make being together a little more special than all the other days of the year.  This morning I was cleaning my kitchen and pulling pots and pans out of cabinets, looking for my biggest platters and cutest serving bowls.  Now, I have a moment to sit and contemplate before the next round begins...making pies and prepping the turkey!  As I sit down to rest, Sadie walks in the door, home from work and loaded with stories of cute kids and crazy shoppers...then CJ walks in from work and hugs me, kisses me then gets ready to go for a 5 mile run.  I can't help but - in my contemplative moment - make a mental list of everything I am SO FREAKING grateful for.  I'm listing them here....because it's my blog and I can...

True LOVE
Family (both immediate and not)
A real testimony
My temple recommend
I'm alive, I'm breathing, my heart is beating
Wisdom and knowledge
SUNSHINE
My home
My husbands successful business
My closet
Clean water
Music
Chocolate chip cookies
Rain
Loratab...it's God sent...I swear (I'm not a druggie...just a fan!)
Big happy dogs
Fluffy white clouds
Felt tip markers
5 year olds (they're just funny!)
....& Diet Coke

That's 20.  I think that's plenty.

I'm sending out a big fat wish, that EVERYONE is able to feel a little bit of love and gratitude on their thanksgiving day.  The sad part is that I know that will not happen...those are the thoughts that keep me up at night.  BUT...It's happiness and hope I'm focusing on, so I'll just do that!

Thankful for ALL my homies!  Peace...
Lisa Lucille

I know my truth!

In the movie Couples Retreat, Vince Vaughns character (after being "bit" by a shark) says, "I know my truth."  I laugh every time!  But, since I am the cheesiest of cheesy people...I like to find a deeper meaning in every phrase, song lyric, quote and so on.  That being said, there is epic meaning in the phrase "I know my truth!"  I use it a lot to drum up a laugh OR explain, "what I know I just know, period, the end."  This movie phrase is my favorite (next to "You don't know my life!" from the movie Baby Momma - which has equally epic meaning for me!).  I use it often, because it ends all stupidity in thoughts, words and random arguments.  I know my truth...smile commenced.

my 'i know my truth' face
...so shut up.

When I use the word "truth" it doesn't stem from it's opposite - "lie".  Truth, for me, means honesty from the inside out.  I have NEVER been very honest with who I actually am, the person my Father in Heaven made me to be.  I'm a pro at degrading my looks, talents, good works, body image and general personality.  About 3 weeks ago my brain screamed "I'VE HAD IT!"  I listened.  My heart then reminded me, "Your spirit was made perfectly by a perfect being."  I knew, without doubt, someone was trying to tell me something.  It was one of those moments your jaw literally drops and your eyes fly open.  This never happens to me, because...truthfully speaking, I'm generally to stubborn to listen to what my 'inside' has to say.  Long story short, my life has changed.  I can look in the mirror without distain, I can laugh whole heartedly at myself, I feel a closer connection to my Heavenly Father and I show love more freely...because I'm not afraid!  My physical body was created by two of the most adorable people I know - my mom and dad.  So I've got to be a little adorable...right?  My physical body is only a house for my spirit, my spirit was made by God and I know he made it perfectly.  So, I'm feeling pretty good about my situation AND everyone else too!  It's always a work in progress, but I like work now!

my baby holding pic's of her baby!

If you want mind blowing, undoubtable truth...watch an ultrasound.  That's a baby, already sucking it's thumb, blinking its eyes, opening it's mouth and rolling around in quiet bliss.  Miracles are absolute, undeniable truth.  My grand baby, swimming in my daughters tummy, is a miracle.   She already looks like her dad - his mouth and nose, most assuredly.  She is camera shy, because she brought her little hands to her face when the technician rolled the ball of jelly up to take a look at her. My Cait was grinning from ear to ear at the beauty of it all.  How LUCKY am I to have been there to experience that.  The truth of it is...I was fascinated and empowered by my own daughters strength. That she is alive and is carrying a baby in her belly is a real miracle.

Kansas...check
Buck down...check
3 degrees...check

CJ goes to Kansas every year to hunt whitetail.  Beautiful deer with yummy meat.  They are yummy because they graze in corn fields and on alfalfa.  Truth...it felt like he was away for a month!  Truth...I felt like it was normal to feel like he'd been gone for a month.  Truth...the night before he got home I thought, "Feeling complacent about CJ being away is NOT something I want to get used to!"  So, I decided right then and there that our 'love story' will never end.  Ups, downs....it doesn't matter, it's a love story and I LOVE every bit of it!  I know my truth FOR SURE when it comes to how much I love my CJ.  No one could put up with me like my Chris does.  No one would care for me like my Chris does.  And absolutely no one could love me as much as my Chris does.  He's home now, and a new chapter in our love story can begin!

Sadie + Otis = love

Truthfully speaking...I know my baby is an adult and can take care of herself!  She has proved that time and time again.  She got a puppy this week.  He is a silver lab and his name is Otis.  As labs are, Otis can be hyper (and he pee's & poop's on my carpet).  However, I think dogs are harder to raise than babies!  So this is a great opportunity for Sadie to be responsible and care for something that breathes and requires water and food to stay alive!  Truth...I'm nervous about this endeavor.  Truth...I know Sadie will do the very best she knows how to keep this cute little puppy happy.  Last one - truth...I'm REALLY glad we decided to wait on remodeling the house.  It's best to have old carpet and old furniture when a puppy comes to live with you.

Cait and Kyle making it a forever family!!!!

On saturday, my Caitlyn and her adorable husband Kyle were sealed in the Oquirhh Temple.  It was SO cold and rainy outside, but inside the temple it was warm, welcoming and bright.  Little Ava was kicking and poking her momma the whole time!  Kyle was a big cry baby...which was so endearing (love ya Wade!).  My Cait, with her gigantic smile and big wide blue eyes, glowed the whole day.  Truth...they are a a family bonded together for eternity now!!  Despite the elements and migraines, this was one of the happiest days we've ever spent together.

This week has been crazy busy and crazy fun and crazy tiring.  My house is a mess, I have 3 piles of laundry just waiting to be folded and put away, I've only cooked one real meal in 7 days, I'm tying to entertain my "sort of on bed rest" Cait, I never see Sadie because she is a dating machine, I've been to the store 3 times (already!) in preparation for Thanksgiving, I have papers to sign and people to meet with all over the valley....however...I know my truth, and the truth is 'if everything wasn't crazy, busy and a little disheveled, it wouldn't be LIFE!'  I am living my life with open arms.  That's the TRUTH!

"Truth is like the sun, you can shut it out for a time, but it ain't going away."  Elvis Presley

I love EVERYBODY...that's the truth!

Peace peeps!

Lisa Lucille

no makeup november!

CJ is celebrating No Shave November!  So, I have decided to celebrate No Make-up November!!!  This has nothing to do with me "hating" my hubs scruff or 'getting back at' my hubs for growing said scruff, I'm not vindictive, I don't roll that way.  I love my CJ, he can do whatever he want's to his hair, beard...whatever, I just don't care.  I'm just using his super celebration as a spark for my own little celebration!  So men everywhere!!!  Grow your beards this november!!!  Become Duck Dynasty hipsters...More Power To YOU!!!  I don't care, because I'm not going to be wearing any makeup.

This is me...today, wearing NO makeup
november 10th
...which is also my awesome Gram Gibson's bday!

I'm not afraid of no makeup.  In fact, I LOVE NO MAKEUP!  The real estate on my face includes: wrinkles, zits, sun spots, dry skin patches, bags/dark circles under my eyes and scars...which all live together quite happily on my face, they've paid off their mortgage so I think they are all staying?  That's ok, I've learned that we are friends...so I'm happy they are debt free now.

Being honest, I will probably wear makeup on sundays and November 22nd when my Cait and Kyle go through the temple to be sealed.  Otherwise, no way...no makeup!  It's like freedom & it's good!

Peace out home skillets...
Lisa Lucille

American Made!

I know, ABSOLUTELY & 100%, that I am an American Girl!!!!  

Here's a few 'beautiful' reasons why:

When I was 4 years old, my dad drove a 1967 mustang.  It was gold and I adored it!  As I got a bit older, my preference turned to the '64 model….but still a mustang, and still my favorite.  To this day, when asked what my dream car is, I say, "A 1964 convertible mustang, baby blue with white interior and white wall tires."  Tricked out and in pristine condition, obviously!   So, I will thank my dad for introducing me to the Ford Mustang.  Truly an american classic!

my first ever favorite car - 1964 Ford Mustang
SUCH A GLORIOUS CAR!

convertible 2015 Ford Mustang
CLASSICALLY AMAZING!

When I was 14, I loved a musician by the name of Howard Jones.  His music inspired me, made me happy and I knew all lyrics to all his songs!  In one of his music video's, it shows him driving a red convertible corvette.  Needless to say, my new favorite car was a corvette.  They have always seemed to be such a "sexy" car to me!  They also remind me of a shark…yep, it's because of the side vents.  I don't have a picture of the 1984 corvette, but I have one of a '62, and because I'm older now…the '62 has my heart.  So retro and classy!

1962 Corvette!
I might kill over if this GORGEOUS girl was given to me!

Corvette today…
I can't even breathe, she's so SEXY!

If I'm being honest, then I will tell you that I didn't notice the Chevy Camero much…UNTIL I saw the first Transformers movie!  I fell in eternal love with Bumblebee!  Not being a big fan of 'colorful' cars, the yellow didn't do much for me…so I started to study the Camero.  In my studying, I became a big fan of the 'old school' camero (shocker.).  I will, and ALWAYS will, love the charcoal with black stripe chevy camero.  But, I seem to end up with a white car every time I buy one…so the 2015 below, seems a little bit more realistic to me?!?

Who wouldn't want this STELLER Camero?
I want to drive TOP SPEED on the open road in this one!

the LOVE of my adult life
convertible….STUNNING….clean
camero!

So….these are all american made cars and they have remained my very favorites through 40 fantastic years!!  However, if you ask me what my favorite, everyday kind of car is….well, that would be a Toyota 4-Runner - totally japanese.  I guess we all have a little flare for something foreign? 

Thank you Grandpa Gibson for letting me hang out in your tire shop.  It is because of that awesome tire shop that my love of cars continued to grow.  I will forever be entranced by the smell of new tires.  My american heritage is something I am so proud of.  I've admitted I do not buy everything american made…but I sure try to (and besides Toyota has a factory right here in the good old U S of A!).  Long live the American Muscle Car!

Peace and sunshine

Lisa

happy EARTH day!

Just wanted to post a few pictures of the places I love most on God's Green Earth!

sunshine….it's my favorite thing

daisy's are my favorite flower

nothing beats the Wasatch and Uinta mountains

MY Land of Liberty!

moose, may favorite animal

snowmen….the only great thing about the snow
(according to me)

raspberries…to make raspberry jam
DELICIOUS!

different cultures…love, learn and appreciate them!

so many places to travel
i love the open road

Bear…another favorite animal

oh the serenity of a white sand beach….ahhhh

Teton Valley! Teton Mountain Range!

untouched, preserved places to EXPLORE!

the clouds….the blue sky

my very own back yard with my dog…
best place to be on my little piece of earth :]

So HAPPY EARTH DAY!  I love this earth!  To explore it, learn about it & learn from it, watch it change from season to season, listen to the breeze blow through the leaves, smell the lilacs in the spring and the crisp leaves in the fall, lay on the grass and stare at the sky, watch a thunderstorm, walk on the trails…or off the trails, travel it, take care of it and love it - the earth is a most precious gift!

Peace and harmony
Lisa

Immature or Not? I just don't know….do I care?

As I watch the years go by, I realize that I totally understand what my mom was telling me when she said, "I might be in my 60's now, but I still feel like a kid inside!"  I'm 43 years old…44 in july, and I still like punk rock music, trendy clothing, coloring, markers and crayons, playing with play dough, buying a new box of crayons…..and so on!  So, what's the deal?  Am I immature or not?  Here is a visual list of my favorite things:

angels and airwaves, blink 182, the offspring, metallica, box car racer, the killers
…just to name a few

i know how bad this stuff is for me, but i LOVE it and can't say no

sunshine…eternal warmth
i'm a freaking brat when it's cold

my favorite food
P.B and J!

i get more giddy over a new box of crayons than i do a new novel

cute toenails….always

COLORING….love it

kick 'A' cars
makes NO sense for a mom to drive a camero or mustang
…but i want one…please, pretty please!!!

grover.
need i explain?

i'm semi-obsessed with transformers
my favorite show - ever
i didn't read Eat, Pray, Love and i didn't see the film…and i won't

can not help but giggle at 'naughty' words and jokes

adorable…chubby shoes!

i play on Polyvore.  it's a mindless waste of time.
it's the only computer 'suck-in' i cave to...
pathetic & eternal fashion coordinator.

So, what's my consensus?  I still don't know, but none of the above seem like real adult-ish things to like and do.  An adult shows discipline and poise.  An adult gives stalwart advice, because of gained wisdom.  An adult probably does not sit and wonder if they are mature or not…they just know they are.  I guess I still don't care either.  I am who I am, because of what life has given me…and I couldn't be more grateful!!!!  So I will play outside with sidewalk chalk, make play dough because I feel like it, mess around on polyvore and watch sesame street on you tube.  I will do all this while wearing chubby teenager shoes and sipping on diet coke with Blink 182 blaring on my laptop.  If you don't like that, then you don't have to like me, it's ok….I'm not sad…I still love you :]  If you find me a little…..well, I'll let Yoda finish that sentence for me.

I swear, get over it.  But to make you feel better:  I've read the Book of Mormon more than once,  I love the gospel of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, I believe Joseph Smith, Prayer works, I have a testimony that my Father in Heaven and His Son are real and they love us all…even if we laugh at naughty jokes.  Now, if my faith offends you it's ok….refer back to Yoda's wisdom.

Peace out girl scout
Lisa :]